YFriday, January 26, 2007
went thru lotsa unimaginable things..
one thing fer sure..this is my loony month.
went out with the guys till late yday..
ate at kallang's KFC..took pics cuz we loved the atmosphere..
in el's words.."very american".
HAHA.
cant load it..pics' wit el and zaini.
the song Illegal by Shakira is on repeat..
dont ask me why. check out the lyrics.
heh.
doo bee doosss....
once upon a night.
zac and i kinda got crazy..we walked outa sentosa to vivo.
took TWO bloody hours cuz of the pit stops of the u-noe-wats..
and PICTURES by u-noe-who..
i officially declare, that sentosa's beautiful at night.
CHECK TIS OUTTT..
now..i just feel that there aint enuf pics posted.
so here it is..
the latest pic of me n my darlin sis..
we were caught in the rain.! haha
APPARENTLY, this bugger sailed off again.
gona miss you..madly.
(he's on d fon wit his girl while i let Hinder 'serenade' me)
that's all for now.. hope ur fine down there.
you don't even know the meaning of "im sorry"
u said that u'll love me till you die..
as far as i know, you're still alive....
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YSunday, January 14, 2007
rain.rain.rain.
it hardly stops.
damn my PSP for bein ver.2.81.
cant do anything i want with it.grrrr.
did my project, and all that i could come up with is merely close to nothing.
my brain is dying on me. nothing of substance have been typed. and its a whole bloody 4 hours of staring straight into the screen trying to come up wit something.
bollocks.
remind me of my future again please?
gosh.i gotta start mugging please.please.please.
saw this someone, whom i think is my cousin, mebe not.
i duno really cuz i have never since him.
i mean NEVER.
but wth, heh. he just appeared.
he is one of the most charismatic guy that i've ever come across
and i have never thought of any guy as that before.
its nothing to do with his wealth or looks or style.
its just his disposition and character that he carries with him
with each stride that got me wow-ed.
i literally was in awe at the sight of him.
but as always, i wasnt looked back in return.
so...he's just another guy that i'll admire from afar.
one thing i know for sure is that whoever..
any lady....
whom he'll choose to be his wife, will be one really lucky lady.
gawd.
he is out of my league.
the one thing i have learnt in a way so far since the beginning of 2007 is this,
1) believe in yourself that u can go through every obstacle
2) have confidence
3) be independent cuz the outcome will only be the result of ur own hardship.
4) APPRECIATE what u have, cuz nothing good comes in life twice.
5) when, u found the friend who stays with u thru everything, dun doubt them. stick with them.
6) doubting one's sincerity is an insult to that person.
7) dun be selfish, cuz life does not only revolve around YOU.
i dun understand y life can be selfish sometimes. it teaches u lessons in a crude, mean way. its like walking through a fogged walkway..where the vision is too blurry that u'll have to try hard to look and find your way, but as u rejoice, to see light, u got hit hard, crushed with each and every part of u scattered all over, cuz wat u saw was a headlight of a huge truck which rammed right thru u unexpectedly.
thats how i see life. evil. cuz at one point of time, u see hope.
hope of a better headstart. but that hope falters in a matter of seconds, crushing u.
making u hate again.
literally, hate disgusted and furious.
THAT'S y, i believe that
when all hope fails, u stop hopin.
its time to start believing.
believe that some friendship, relationship, family, outcome, is meant to be the way it is.
BOLLOCKS.BOLLOCKS.BOLLOCKS.
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YThursday, January 11, 2007
the crazy downpour is madness. haha.
went to town and the cab queues are horrendous.
went through culinary today with utter exhaustion.
literally exhausted with the running around the kitchen.
short of this, that..bla bla bla.
but at the end of the day, i was satisfied.
cuz the Penna Cotta was delicious
and i have actually learnt how to make a wonderful dessert!
with that HEAVY BAG of mine, i walked through the rain from Orchard MRT to FORUM!
stewpid rain. now im sneezing away.
ANYHOWS,
i am so tired. of everything.
bein in a middle of something that im not sure of,
trying to work things out,
trying to make things happen,
being people's source of distraction when they are bored,
being used,
and worst, being all messed up in myself.
thank God that im finally seeing improvement in myself.
i pride myself for that.
i shall not elaborate for now.
work tomorrow and im already dreading.
lalala.
goodnite.
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YWednesday, January 10, 2007
believe it or not.
its already 2007 and its the year that i will no longer be called a TEENager.
bleh.
time flew so fast that i forgot when was the last time we actually had the simple life.
now, all that we actually talk about is
work, project, disputes, and of course, our future.
"what am i going to do after i graduate"
- its just 3more years to go (or more) to actually hold a stable job
with regular monthly income. its madness.
HAHA.
ANYWAYS, i have been on my own in school recently
i bet people have noticed but refused to question y..
so moments of solitude is the moment that u must really treasure cuz these moments are rare and they are those times that u really sit back and reflect.
and those are the times that i actually get to do something useful,
like catchin up with what i've missed in the course of being diagnosed with that stupid sickness.
i cant believe that i missed out on alot! its crazy how lost i am in school.
but this is the challenge that i am willing to take. =)
the whip cream on the ice cream of my new found solitaire experience is,
makin new acquaintainces wit the foreign students in TAS.
it may be a good short 20mins, but its a great experience.
heh.
emy has been the girl with attitude in TAS that people dun wana come close.
or cant be bothered to.
haha.perhaps it could also be because i cant be bothered myself.
wth.
gota have an early night now and get geared up as the pastry commis chef tomorrow.
haha.
By the way, this is the BEST haircut i ever had.
night.
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YWednesday, January 03, 2007
i have no single sixth idea why.
despite knowing that you've moved on..
i still miss you.
despite knowing about your past,
i still miss you.
i don't know why im still thinking about you.
trying to let you go.
when it should have been easy.
i don't know why i miss the childish talks we had.
the complaints abt how "fat" we were.
i don't know why im so dumb.
i cant fathom the reason behind this "thing"
thats going on inside me.
i don't wana name it hope.
i dont know what i know about this.
BUT i know i LOATHE premier silver cabdrivers.
cant believe i got assaulted by an effin female cabdriver.
yes elly, yes has..im still shaken. =/
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